Joni Mitchell - A Case of You
This song just brings out every possible emotion in me. I feel joyful, tearful, sorrow, loneliness, peace, comfort, like singing along with her even during the high, inaccessible notes.
Oh, but you are in my blood
You’re my holy wine
You’re so bitter
bitter and so sweet.
Oh, I could drink a case of you darling
still I’d be on my feet
I would still be on my feet.
The more I say it, the more I feel afraid of being alone. I am afraid. I’m embarrassed that I am alone, I’m afraid of how painfully slow the hours go, I’m afraid that I don’t know how to be alone, I’m afraid of eating alone, I’m afraid of an empty home, I’m afraid of the thoughts left unspoken before I go to sleep alone. But still, I’m lying: ”I’m not afraid of being alone….”
I have so much love I want to share, but there are no outlets now, here. And I’m afraid.